Absent Mind.

Okay. So I haven't blogged in over a month. And as much as I wish I could blame lack of motivation, I can't. There have been so many things going on in my life that have been dying to escape out of me, but I don't feel it does the other people close to my heart justice to describe what has been going on in my life. What I will say is this:

There are few things I regret in my life, but I came to realise that cutting my Grandparents out of my life was one of the biggest ones of all. Due to circumstances that I will not go into, and coming so close to losing one of them this last month, it has made me realise that I need to stop being so bloody stubborn, and when my family need me, I go and help them. I don't sit back and watch them struggle. It wasn't their fault my family went to pot all these years ago, but I took it out on them anyway. And that wasn't right. But now I will cherish every moment with them, as no one knows what's around the corner.

There are few people in my life that I thought would be there through thick and thin. And mostly in that area, I was right. But there is one particular person who has been there through all of this, and I wouldn't have been able to do it without him. A shoulder to cry on, a punch bag when I need to rant, and most of all the person I come home to at night and he's always there with a cuddle and a smile, telling me everything's going to be okay. And he has been the person that has kept me going, and our relationship is so much more precious to me than it has ever been.

And whilst I miss writing all of my thoughts and feelings down, it has been nice to confide in him, and for him to reassure me. As it's something I have needed in my life recently. And I am so grateful to him for that. And whilst this won't be the end of my blogging, it has made me realise that I love the people near and dear to me more than they can imagine.