Sunshine, Sun, Seagulls and Sunbathing.

So it seems that summer has finally descended on St Ives. This is the time of the year that the town shows its beauty. Amazing sunsets, gorgeous beaches and market stalls along the harbour.

I am definately a summer person. Call it cheesy but I feel so much happier during the summer. Everyone instantly becomes more laid back, whether they're working or not, and that's what I love. Also the fact that everyone finds it acceptable to go and drink wine on the beach and have a BBQ is a plus I guess too! Nothing better than putting all my winter clothes and layers to one side and digging out my summer skirts and sandals. Although this year it looks like I'll be having to fake bake rather than actual bake...

However, now is the time of year where the tourists descend. St Ives will now be a hustle and bustle town until October. And whilst sometimes this is nice, it does get a bit irritating a few weeks in when you can't get on your bus to work because there's too many people on it already, or you're late for something because of the way they stroll through the streets. (To be fair, if I were on holiday I would probably do the same, but I'm not. So they're not allowed). Or if they feed the seagulls and then the seagulls think it's perfectly acceptable to steal my lunch. (yes I know I'm probably rambling and sounding like an old woman but its little things like this that really irritate me).

So to get myself in a summery mood I have created a summer playlist to stick on my ipod. Bit gay yes, but I love nothing better than lying in my back garden with a bit of Ben Howard or Jason Mraz on my Ipod speakers. Even though this summer I will be working a ridiculous amount, my promise to myself is to chill out a bit more, relax, and walk more - whether that be to work or to meet friends - I can't complain much then if at least I am out in the sun a little bit. I wind myself up too much about stupid things, and get myself in a foul mood. But my new rule is, that when the suns out, I must be happy. No matter how much I want to be annoyed when I have to be stuck in work listening to people about how beautiful the weather is....

No News is Good News.... Right?

I'm off to London on Monday for the week to stay with a friend. If I'm honest, I think it's exactly what I need right now to take my mind off things. My family had a bit of bad news this week, and to be honest I am pretty gutted about it. I'm not going to say much more about it as it wouldn't be fair, but it's one of those biggies that will change my family life, and the way people feel. So right now, that's all I can think about, and my mind keeps coming up with if's and but's, and whether things are likely to get better rather than worse. And it has taken me a few days to realise that it isn't going to get better, and we need to come to terms with this.

I'm pretty good at being the rock in my family. When things really matter, I keep my feelings all tied up inside me, and get on with life. It's what I've been brought up to do. Look after everyone else. And this is what I'm going to do this time too. As long as everyone else is okay, then I will be too. I have to be, for everyone else. I was the rock when my Dad left, I was the rock when my Nan died, and I will be the rock this time. So I apologise for the break in my blogging, but right now my family comes first, and it will do for the forseeable future.

I'm going to London to get away for a bit. Distract me from said recent events. Theres nothing like an Oxford Street shopping trip and wine dinner with one of my best friends to take my mind off things for a bit. I'm looking forward to catching up with a few friends that I hardly ever see.

So I can't remember the last time I posted on here, but I got myself another job. Waitressing in a little Italian restaurant in St Ives called Peppers. I've always loved the food, and I love the social side that waitressing gives me (plus tips are obviously a huge bonus!). At the moment I just work there on the weekends, and my other job during the week as normal. During the summer this will increase to quite a few days during the week, so I will be flitting about here there and everywhere and not sleeping much, but by September I WILL have my Macbook Pro to replace my extremely poorly netbook.