A-Z of me. Harder than I thought!

So I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon and do one of these A-Z of things I love. I actually decided to write it about a week ago, but it took me so long to think of things I love! So here goes:

A - Animal Kingdom in Florida. The best holiday of all time. When my family was still one piece, I was young, and still found everything fascinating. I loved the tree of life too. Incredible.

B - The Beach. I always say I hate it, but I know that living in the place that I do I take it completely for granted. It is a stunning place and I think I'd really miss it if I left.

C - Cuddles. This one I think goes without saying. Cuddles with Daniel. In my opinion absolutely nothing better. And this leads me nicely to my next letter.

D - Daniel. My life. And the one person that will be there for me no matter what. He understands me. And I believe he's my soulmate.

D - Dad. Okay yes another 'D', but this one deserves it. My Dad is the one person in my family that I can always trust to help me out in a bad situation. He means the world to me and I probably don't tell him this enough.

E - Exercise. I wish I did more of it now, because I used to be so sporty and I love it. I love the feeling of accomplishment you get afterwards.

F - Fashion. I love anything to do with fashion as anyone reading my blog will know. I just wish I had the motivation to follow my dreams, as cheesey as it sounds.

G - Godrevey Beach. I used to come here all the time with my Nan, sit up on the coves and watch the dolphins. Definately my favourite place. A lot of good memories up there.

H - Haribo Strawbs. This sounds like a bit of a gay one but it's kind of mine and Danny's thing. Competitions to see who can throw it up the highest and catch it in their mouth. I won. Obviously. Ha, I wish. I sucked.

I - Inspiration. I love the feeling I get when I get inspiration. For new designs, new outfits, new blog posts, anything.

J - Jewellery. I have several bracelets on my wrist that all mean different things to me. A few necklaces, and a few rings. All from different friends or family and with different meanings. They mean a hell of a lot to me.

K - Kindle. I don't know what I'd do without it now. I absolutely love my kindle. I read a hell of a lot, and this goes everywhere with me. So much easier than carrying a book!

L - Lazy Days. Whether it be movies with the boyf, catch ups with friends or even a chill out day by myself. After a week of working, I normally use a Sunday for a lazy day just to refresh myself.

M - My Hero by The Foo Fighters. Probably my all time favourite song. And I thank my Daddy for introducing me to the world of amazing music.

N - Netball. Pretty much the same as the sport thing. I play Goal Attack, and absolutely love it. Have played it since I was about 10.

O - Ollie. There was no question about this letter. My border collie 14 year old pooch means the world to me. He's always extremely good company and is always up for a cuddle.

P - Photos. There isn't really a need to explain this one. They hold a lot of fantastic memories.

Q - Quiet. After a long day at work there isn't anything more I like than coming home to a peaceful house (not that it EVER happens) and chilling out for an hour to unwind.

R - Reading. I think that reading helps me to escape from the shit happening in my world and go into the world of the character of the book. Sounds like a queer persons view, but I could read a book for hours and never get bored.

S - Sunsets. Sitting on the beach in the summer watching the sunset with a bottle of wine and a few friends is a perfect summer evening.

T - Teddies. Again, being 20 years old you'd think I have grown out of this habit by now. And I have, but there is clearly a few I would never get rid of, as they were given to me by extremely special people.

U - Ukelele. Okay, so maybe not for me personally, as I don't have a musical bone in my body. But I love hearing my sister play it. The talent that comes out of that girl and a small guitar is untrue.

V - Vampires. I have a small obsession with the twilight films. Not for any particular reason apart from the fact I really LOVE the books.

W - Writing. I think my whole blog explains this in itself.

X - Xabec. The gem of a villa that I found for me and my friends to stay in in Menorca. 5 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, a basketball court and a swimming pool. And we payed £30 each for the week. Amazing place and one of the best holidays.

Y - Yawning. I just love sleep ha.

Z - Zebra Print. Or any other animal print. Obviously not all together. Just a few accessories or shoes will do me just fine.


Okay, so the last two were a bit silly and pointless, but at least I got one for every letter?!

But If You're Too Big To Follow River, How You Ever Gonna Find The Sea?

One last thing I never added to my other post, this song is incredible. I love the lyrics in it, it's such a nice song. And I just love Emeli Sande. Admiration bit over, seriously listen to it.

“You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching, Love like you'll never be hurt, Sing like there's nobody listening, And live like it's heaven on earth.”

Lately I have taken a bit of a break from blogging. There isn't really a particular reason for this, but it has given me a bit of time to reflect on a few things:

Due to recent events, I have realised that there are very few people I can trust in this lonely world. And in order to find out who these people are, I have distanced myself from quite a few friends and family to give me time to think. I have found out that some people are not who I thought they were, and are very deceiving and sly. Being nearly 21, I have grown out of such childish behaviours and my time will from now on be spent with the people who make an effort with me - not the people who I have to make an effort with in order to receive any sort of communication with. I will also be very careful what I say to who, as the town I live in is very small, gossip is spread and twisted in ways I never thought was possible.

I was watching 90210 the other week, and felt extremely sorry for Ivy and Raj. I know anyone reading this would think 'how pathetic, writing about a pretend tv series'. But Raj has cancer, and lied to his wife telling her he didn't want to be with her anymore, but in reality he didn't want to tell her that he was dying, and didn't want to hurt her. Someone I know very young, passed away last week due to this horrible illness, and it has made me realise that no matter that no matter the type of person (and it never seems to be the bad people), that cancer is not fussy who's life it takes over. My Nan for example was the nicest, sweetest woman ever, and cancer took over her life, making her into an unrecognizable woman. Now, call me cynical, but if there was a God in this world, horrible illnesses like this would not exist. And because of this I believe that there is no such thing.

I went out at the weekend and lost my entire wallet. It's not until this happened that I realise how much I need certain things in my life: a driving liscence and a bank card included. I searched everywhere, but to no avail. I cancelled my card and ordered myself a new liscence, but I can't help but think if I wasn't so irresponsible (and after a few lectures from certain family members), that this wouldn't have happened. I got given the night off work to be able to go out and if I was working I know that this wouldn't have happened. When will I learn that alcohol does bad things to me, and I need to learn to be more responsible!

Probably won't happen, but I'd like to think it will. Someday.

Doctor: 'Do you know what's wrong?'

So it's been about a week since I last posted. I've been really busy with work and such that I haven't really had time. And when I have had time I have slept. I know where my priorities lie really. My bed.

Went to the doctors a few days ago about the really nasty cough I have had for months. Don't really know why it has taken me this long to get it seen to, it really has become a nightmare. Although after seeing the doctors on Monday I now know why I have waited this long. Doctors are shit. I waited for 40 minutes for a Doctor to see me, and after checking out my heartbeat, pulse and lungs for about 20 minutes, he turns around and tells me that he doesn't know. And even gets to the point of asking me what I thought it was?
Ummm, now I'm no genius, but if I knew what it was surely I wouldn't be here? So he gives me an inhaler, thinking it could be the start of asthma, which I don't think it is in the slightest.. and sends me on my way. £8 for a prescription I don't really need and a doctor who hasn't a sky blue what is wrong with me. It was definately a trip worth making.

Have actually been in quite a good mood recently, bar the illness and all that. I have been doing exercise quite a bit. Well. When I say quite a bit I mean I went to the gym one night and played a netball match another, but it's still a lot more than I'm used to. And I feel a lot better for it. I want to sleep more, granted, but slowly I can see my tummy disappearing. And that bit I like. I can see why people get hooked on exercise. (not that it will EVER happen to me).

Off to see a friend in Taunton on Saturday for the weekend. It'll be good to get out of St Ives if only for one night. It's a nice town and everything but it does get a little claustrophobic if you stick around for too long without a break. The only problem I'm having is that on this weekend we are going to be going out. And on a night out at home, it takes me 2 hours and several changes of outfits until I walk out the door feeling satisfied. Having to decide what I want to wear Saturday night, tomorrow, is going to be a problem. For starters, I don't know if I'm going to have a fat day or a thin day, and of course my outfit depends entirely on that outcome. Second, I've never been out there before, and I don't know what it's like, so flats AND heels are going to have to be included, jackets or cardigans, tights or no tights, etc, etc..

I may as well just stop stressing and take my WHOLE wardrobe. A little over the top yes. But then catered for every occasion.

On second thoughts, probably not such a good idea.